Pour Your Heart Out: Blogging Guilt

Every once in a blue moon, you’ll see from me a different type of post.

And so is today’s post – from Things I Can’t Say – a fabulous blog I follow.  Her writing prompt today couldn’t have been more relevant: Do you ever have blogging guilt?

Well, that’s pretty easy.

Oh.My.God. Do I Ever.

Sorry, was I too loud just then?

Well – here you go. There are days where I feel like I have nothing to write about.

Funny enough, I WANT to keep this about our journey. I don’t want it to turn into rants about living in DC (too easy) or musings about hoarding shows (yes, I watch them to make me feel better). But then – how many times can I type about and bemoan what a craptastic day we had? How B once again struggles to play with our friends – and not bite/punch/kick/pummelize them for getting into his space? How B had a meltdown once again and kicked one of us in the face when trying to get him to take a break?

I mean, I want to make posts meaningful so that you (all 40 something of you guys now, woot!) can enjoy. I want you to nod and say, “been there, done that.”

But I’m not just a mom to a kid on the spectrum. I’m a mom to another cute kid, a wife, a sister, and a friend. I’m sarcastic, silly, moody, bizarre. I love making people laugh. I love beer. I bitch incessantly about living in DC but can’t imagine living anywhere else. Where can that go on this site? I struggle with balancing everything on this blog.

You should see me some days…thinking I need to blog, but coming up short on a topic. I will start and stop incessantly. I tap my pen, surf around other sites, and just mull on something interesting. I am not a naturally gifted writer. I distract myself by loading the dishwasher.

And when I actually find something to write about – I feel guilty about putting it “out there”. Because, you know, “out there” is forever. I type, and delete, and type again. I keep clicking “Preview Post” to and then type some more. What if I write the wrong thing? What if I forget something to put into the post? What if I inadvertently copied someone else’s post? What if I can’t express exactly how I feel? What if Iwritetoomanyrunonsentences?

Well that was easy.

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About OneLoCoMommy

I live in Northern Virginia and and I look like the stereotypical suburban mom, for better or for worse. My son plays baseball and takes karate (albeit adaptive). My daughter is a gymnastics diva but rolls with the boys in T-ball. I've been a Room Mom and Playdate Coordinator. I work full-time, try to work out, and love my Book Club. However, I also blog on my experiences on our ASD, SPD and ADHD journey while trying to be a better parent advocate. All in a life's work.
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13 Responses to Pour Your Heart Out: Blogging Guilt

  1. nice to meet you. my biggest fear blogging is that people will think I dont love my son. crazy huh. I tend to be a bit dark and twisty… and often full of guilt

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  2. My husband is “nice” enough to periodically ask me why I blog about stuff–“do people really care?” Heck if I know, but I keep putting it “out there.”

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  3. I worry about putting things Out There too. Hoarding shows are great they either make me feel better about the condition of my house or give me the motivation to clean.

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  4. melmama says:

    I totally feel you and was thinking the same thing this week….man I need to think of a good post to write about. But alas, nothing thought provoking has hit me. Funny thing- the posts that I think are so thought provoking and moving never get as much feedback as those day to day ones I just throw out there.

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  5. Frelle says:

    i get blogging guilt and blogging fear too. im glad to read honest words from your heart. and im mom to a daughter on the spectrum and I have invisible disabilities. Nice to meet you!

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  6. Shell says:

    Remember that this is your space and you can write whatever is on your mind!

    Btw- for PYHO, you don’t have to stick to the topic I write about, either. It can be about whatever you want to pour out. 😉

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  7. When I started my blog I didn’t have a plan for it to be about a particular slice of my life. I’ve put some pretty diverse topics out there and the only thing that binds them together is me. Tonight, after a battle royale getting my boys fed, clean & in bed, the only thing I’m writing is this comment!

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