I checked my mailbox yesterday (first time I have really been outdoors since getting sick) and there it was.
The letter from the county telling me my son is “age-eligible” for Kindergarten next school year.
Well, it had to happen. The push to mainstream him again. Up until the past year I was all about mainstreaming him as much as I could. After the various suspensions and all that, I begrudgingly enrolled him in an inclusive preschool along with ECSE. From that point on, he has been out of mainstream’s watch.
I can’t lie – it’s been more comforting for us, knowing that his current situation is tailored around HIM. The numbers are smaller in class. He has teachers, assistants and therapists that all work with him. I don’t have to worry about a call to pick him up because of aggression. I don’t have to worry about trying to explain my son’s quirks and tendencies – they all get it, and all work with him.
I knew it would had to happen soon. It sounds strange to start as we just finished Holiday Break. But as parents, we always have to look down the pike – the next grade, the next holiday, the next potty incident. We always have to look at the possibilities and the potential pitfalls. We strategize and compromise to find what will fit best for us. It’s tiring and draining. But you know if you don’t do it, you’re left holding the bag.
So, the letter came. Since the county is already aware that B is in ECSE, I am invited to a special meeting focused on the transition process for B. I’m extremely nervous about facing the next step – so many things to think about. Will he make it back to his “home school”? What after-K options are available for him? How will his IEP potentially change to reflect this? How will his OT therapies go?
Kindergarten will be a BIG step. Instead of 5-10 kids, it will be more like 30 kids. More chances for outbursts, fights, reprimands. He still struggles with keeping his hands to himself. Can he wait in line with that many kids? Will he be able to follow and adapt to a bigger, louder environment?
Once upon a time I was so determined to mainstream him into Kindergarten. Now? I’m not so sure. Guess we’ll have to wait and see what’s out there.